Edel15: Getting There

Edel15: Getting There

This past weekend, I was fortunate enough to get to attend the 2015 Edel Gathering.  (If you’d like to see more about the event on social media, look for the hashtag #edel15.)

My journey began Friday morning with my 3:15 a.m. alarm to get me up and out the door in time to make it on my 7 a.m. flight out of Omaha.  I drove to Omaha in the dark, enjoying the solitude and listening to a podcast of The Doctor is In.  I made it to the airport with time to spare and boarded the flight to Atlanta just as the sun was coming up.

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I took this picture from the air to prove to you fine non-Nebraskans that we have more than cornfields to offer!  Look!  Omaha is a real metropolis!

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Once I landed in Atlanta, I made my way over to the flight schedule to make sure my connecting flight to Charleston was on time.  It was, so I headed over to get a bite to eat and relax for a few minutes before heading to my gate.

Well, you see, it’s dangerous for this lady to travel alone.  The idea of eating by myself (even in a crowded international airport) was so soothing that I lost all track of time.  I glanced at my clock and realized I had somehow gotten my times wrong with the time change to realize that my flight was boarding.  I ran toward the gate as quickly as I could.  As I arrived at the gate, the scene played out in slow motion.  I saw the plane still sitting next to the gate, but they were pulling away the walkway, closing the door to the ramp, and the screen at the gate read:

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Panting, I said, “Is it gone?  Is there any way I can board?”

The curt airline employee snapped.  “Are you Catherine Bow-chur?  Where have you been?!  I’ve been paging you!”

“Yes, it’s me, I’m sorry.  I ran here as quickly as I could.  Is there any way I can get on that flight?”

“No.  But you can go down past that gate to check and see if the airline can board you on a later flight.”

Still panting, I walked away from the gate toward the airline counter.  At that moment, I realized in my exertion to make my flight, I had most definitely peed my pants.  (Note to self:  Time to resume my pelvic floor physical therapy exercises.)  Guh-ross.  Fortunately, I was wearing dark denim capris and could wrap my jacket around my waist to cover up the embarrassment.  Lovely!  Also, I was carrying on, so I had my clothes with me.  Phew.

Before getting to change, I had to visit the airline counter to see if I could get on a later flight.  Miracle of miracles, they had a flight departing an hour later and could squeeze me on.  Yay!  I got a ticket for that flight and quickly made my way to the restroom to, uh, freshen up.  Let me tell ya, there’s nothing like being able to change into new clothes after peeing your pants after missing your flight.  I was a new woman, ready for whatever came my way.

I reported straight to the gate, got my new seat assignment, and stayed put until boarding.  I wasn’t going to risk missing a second flight.  This mama distracted by freedom learned her lesson!

As I made my way onto the plane, I had my first of several Catholic starstruck moments when I saw Kathryn Whitaker, one of my favorite bloggers at Team Whitaker, sitting on my flight.  At this point in my journey, I was a complete bumbling fool who had forgotten all of my social niceties.  “Kathryn Whitaker?!”  I exclaimed more than asked, like a junior high girl at a boy band concert.  She met my (likely) crazed eyes.  “Hi!  Catherine Boucher.  I’ve been a long-time reader of your blog.”  Being the gracious southerner that she is, she sweetly extended her hand to shake mine as I fumbled with my luggage.  There were a million questions I wanted to ask her in that moment.  Instead, we made a quick connection to our mutual friend, Lisa Schmidt, and I blurted out, “How’s your knee?”  Creepy stalker that I am, I knew that she had broken her knee cap the previous week but was still soldiering her way across the country to Edel.  She ever-so-sweetly answered that it was okay, the line of boarding passengers moved forward, and I said that I would see her at Edel.  We didn’t get to speak again at the conference, but I admired her ability to keep her signature smile on all weekend despite the pain she had to be in.  Way to go, soldier!

“Very cool,” I thought.  “If I had made my first flight, I probably wouldn’t have gotten to meet Kathryn Whitaker.”  I made my way to my seat, sat down, closed my eyes, and waited for our flight to get going to so that I could get to Edel.  Ten minutes later, the captain came over the speakers.  As it turned out, the plane was originally scheduled to go to Belize.  It had 9,000 more pounds of fuel in the tank than it needed for our hour-long flight to Charleston.  As the flight captain explained, having too much fuel doesn’t sound like much of a problem until it comes to landing.  If a plane lands with too much fuel, the weight throws off the plane and can cause a crash.

Thirty minutes later, the captain came back on.  “Ladies and gentlemen, I’ve been flying for 24 years, and I have never seen anything like this.”  This is never what you want to hear.  “We are waiting for a tanker to come out.  You see, we can’t put the fuel directly back into the ground.  Instead, we need a tanker to remove the fuel from the plane.  We’re doing everything we can to find someone to help us out.”

Sixty minutes later, a flight attendant comes over the speakers.  “The captain is out there doing everything he can to get us going as soon as possible.  The tanker is on its way to remove the fuel.”

The passengers were starting to get hot and irritable.  The flight attendants passed out pretzels and mini bottles of water.  I overheard an older gentleman behind me say, “You know, I miss the good ol’ days. In the good ol’ days, when this sort of thing happened, they’d give you a drink. Now, we just get this water. I miss the good ol’ days.”

Twenty minutes later, the tanker arrived.

Another twenty minutes later, the captain come on.  “The tanker has removed 6,000 pounds of fuel and has 3,000 pounds to go.  We should be on our way shortly.”

Finally, we heard these beautiful words:  “Flight crew, please prepare the cabin for takeoff.”  Hallelujah!

During the fuel fiasco, I introduced myself to my two seat mates.  They were newlyweds from Illinois.  Throughout the course of the flight, the bride and I kept chatting while her hubby snoozed and listened to music on his headphones.  When she learned that I was attending a conference for a bunch of Catholic women, her eyes brightened.  “I’m Catholic!”  She shared how important her faith is to her, that she hopes to have a large family, and that she is praying for her husband to convert.  “I want it for him, but I know that he has to want it.”  By the end of the flight, we had talked about how she could get her marriage convalidated (blessed by the Church) and how easy it would be to get right back into living life as a Catholic.  We parted ways, saying that we would be keeping each other in prayer.  It was yet another moment on the way to Edel when I thought, “I guess I was supposed to be here instead of where I had planned to be.”

We landed in Charleston, and I made my way out to the street level.  I had resigned myself to taking a taxi solo to the airport since I had long missed my original meet-up time with my roomie.  Miracle of miracles, I spotted Lisa Schmidt, friend and blogger at The Practicing Catholic, with her sister and friends.  As it turned out, they were walking out to meet their Uber ride and graciously offered me a spot in the car.  On the way to the Francis Marion (the hotel where Edel was taking place), I had a wonderful conversation with the ladies in the car.  I had just met some of the ladies, but we were able to bypass the usual small talk, and we cut to the heart.  Yet again, it was one of those moments when I thought, “This is exactly where I am supposed to be.  Thank You for not letting my plans come to fruition.”  The car ride was just a small glance into what the rest of the Edel weekend would be like.  “These are my people, I thought.  “I am not alone as a Catholic wife and mother.  They get me.”  

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I’ll pick up next time with the rest of my Edel weekend.  It was well worth the wild journey to get there!

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Put It To Work 35

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Sorry I’m a day late this time.  I’m still transitioning back to real life since my return from Edel on Sunday night.  (More on that soon!)

Another week means another opportunity to swap prayer intentions and start “putting them to work” for one another!

Here are my prayer intentions for this week:

  • For those battling cancer and bravely enduring the treatments that go with it.  That they may find their strength and peace in Christ.
  • For parents of special needs children.  That they receive the support they need from the rest of us.
  • For our GodTeens and youth everywhere.  That they may draw ever nearer to Christ this summer.
  • For my father-in-law, Rick (aka “Papa”), as he celebrates his birthday this weekend.  That he will have a year full of many blessings.

Your turn! What prayer intentions can I “put to work” for you this week? As always, I will add them to my prayer journal and pray for you by name throughout the week–especially during my morning prayers. Please share your intentions in the comment box below, on the blog Facebook page, or send them to me via the blog contact form. Thank you in advance for your prayers.

Have a great week!

What Confession is Like

What Confession is Like

 

“Gospel of Luke Chapter 15-7 (Bible Illustrations by Sweet Media)” by Distant Shores Media/Sweet Publishing. Licensed under CC BY-SA 3.0 via Wikimedia Commons

“Gospel of Luke Chapter 15-7 (Bible Illustrations by Sweet Media)” by Distant Shores Media/Sweet Publishing. Licensed under CC BY-SA 3.0 via Wikimedia Commons

My non-Catholic friends will ask me, “What’s confession like?”  Last week, I came across a story that comes pretty darn close to capturing the reality of confession.

Arthur Booth was arrested last Monday and appeared before Judge Mindy Glazer in bond court on Thursday.  The Miami-Dade judge recognized Mr. Booth and asked him if he had attended Nautilus Junior High School.  Instantly, Booth’s face changes from a smile to immense sorrow.  He begins sobbing uncontrollably, pacing, and covering his face in shame, saying, “Oh my goodness, oh my goodness.”  Instead of shaming Mr. Booth for his life of crime, Judge Glazer encouraged him.

“I’m sorry to see you there, I always wondered what happened to you sir,” Glazer said, as Booth continued crying. “This was the nicest kid in middle school, he was the best kid in middle school. I used to play football with him, all the kids, and look what has happened.”

“I am so sorry to see you there. Mr. Booth, I hope you are able to change your ways, good luck to you,” she said. “What’s sad is how old we’ve become. Good luck to you sir, I hope you are able to come out of this ok and just lead a lawful life.”

You can see video of the courtroom footage here.

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I feel like Arthur Booth every time I go to confession.  I think my sin makes me unrecognizable when I come face-to-face with the priest who is standing in persona Christi, as Christ.  But I should know better.  Christ is my Lord, my Maker.  Of course He knows my face and my heart!

Judge Glazer knew Arthur Booth when they were in junior high.

Christ has known about me for all eternity.  “I know you.  I know the number of hairs on your head.  I knit you in your mother’s womb.  I know when you sit and when you stand.  I know your words before you utter them.  Come to Me, and trust in my Love.”

I’m reading Heather King’s Redeemed: Stumbling Toward God, Sanity, and the Peace That Passes All Understanding.  I’m a quarter of the way in to this heartbreakingly honest and beautiful account of a woman’s journey from addiction to sobriety and peace in the arms of Mother Church.  Heather shares an encounter she had with a tenderhearted Irish priest while on a weekend retreat.  After meeting his glance, Heather reflects,

In a way, Christ is just the Person who sees you when you feel like you’re most invisible.  In a way, Christ is just the Person who knows what’s in your heart before you do.  In a way, I’d come to see later, Christ is just the Person who, when you look around and think you’re crazy, says: Don’t worry, you’re not.

Note:  The book has a few questionable theological ideas, but the heart of the book is solid and good food for thought.

Ever since I was a little girl, I have preferred going to confession face-to-face instead of behind the screen.  When I look into the priest’s eyes, I feel Christ looking at me with the same sorrow Judge Glazer must have felt for her classmate.  He acknowledges my sins, but He reminds me with His loving glance that I have a future full of hope.

Like Mr. Booth, I must humbly receive my penance and fulfill it to make things right to the best of my ability.  The severity of my penance and the words of the priest reflect the gravity of my sinfulness.  Then, I pray aloud The Act of Contrition, a prayer that always reduces me to a blubbering mess.

O my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended Thee, and I detest all my sins, because I dread the loss of heaven, and the pains of hell;

but most of all because I have offended Thee, my God,

Who are all good and deserving of all my love. (Blubber, blubber, blubber.)

I firmly resolve, with the help of Thy grace,

to sin no more and avoid the near occasions of sin. Amen.

Then, the priest says the sweetest words I’ll hear this side of heaven:

God the Father of mercies, through the death and resurrection of your son, you have reconciled the world to yourself and sent the Holy Spirit among us for the forgiveness of sins. Through the ministry of the church, may God grant you pardon and peace. And I absolve you of your sins, in the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Absolution doesn’t mean I’m “off the hook” the same way Judge Glazer’s mercy doesn’t mean Mr. Booth won’t have to serve time for his crimes.  The confession draws to an end when the priest says the words,

Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good

And I reply,

His mercy endures forever

With that, the priest sends me on my way:

Go in peace!

And I’m off to do my penance.

Just as I leave the confessional with the reminder of God’s enduring mercy and the resolution to “sin no more and avoid the near occasion of sin,” Arthur Booth  left the courtroom with Judge Glazer’s mercy and compassion.  “Good luck to you sir, I hope you are able to come out of this ok and just lead a lawful life,” and Mr. Booth moves on to do his own penance.  God willing, Judge Glazer’s mercy and the reminder of the man he dreamed he would be in junior high will help him to turn his life around just as God’s mercy helps me to avoid the sins that brought me to confession in the first place.

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Another Monday means another opportunity to swap prayer intentions and start “putting them to work” for one another!

Here are my prayer intentions for this week:

  • For the repose of the soul of my uncle whose birthday was today
  • For those struggling with addictions and depression and for those who love them
  • For Philip’s mom, Janet, as we celebrate her birthday on Wednesday.  In thanksgiving for her life and the gift she is to all of us!
  • For safe travels and a fruitful weekend at The Edel Gathering with all of the other attendees

Your turn! What prayer intentions can I “put to work” for you this week? As always, I will add them to my prayer journal and pray for you by name throughout the week–especially during my morning prayers. Please share your intentions in the comment box below, on the blog Facebook page, or send them to me via the blog contact form. Thank you in advance for your prayers.

Have a great week!

The God of Tomorrow

The God of Tomorrow

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I’m currently reading Elizabeth Scalia’s Strange Gods: Unmasking the Idols in Everyday Life.  I’m about halfway through the book, and I must say, it has already been a big gut check for me.  The book is an examination of the various “gods” we hold up for idolatry today.  Sometimes they’re fairly obvious (wealth, sex, social media), but other times they are subtle.  When they’re more subtle, they are more dangerous.  After all, “subtle” (or “cunning,” depending on the translation) is the same descriptor used for the snake in Eden.

“Now the serpent was more subtle than any other wild creature that the Lord God had made.”  Genesis 3:1

Scalia shared an interesting anecdote about how her husband created a god out of Forever with a hammock he received as a gift.  He was so concerned about preserving the hammock that he brought it safely inside every time it looked like it was going to rain, and he carefully rehung it after the storm cleared.  By mid-July, he would be so sick of the back and forth that he would leave it inside for the rest of the warm season.  Perhaps, Scalia observed, it was a reflection of how her husband thought keeping something looking like new forever would prevent him from considering his own aging process.

“Forever comes with a catch though: my husband is so busy saving the hammock that its usefulness is lost to him.  It’s like he doesn’t have a hammock at all.  Forever, then, is a very empty idol.”

That got me thinking.  Have I made a god of Forever?  Are there things that I’m holding onto that I want to preserve from the aging process?  The only thing that came to mind were the two bottles of bubble bath that never get used or the china and pieces of serving wear that rarely make an appearance out of the china hutch.  When I was younger, I used to save brand new scrapbooking materials or clothes only for the perfect moment.  Somewhere between junior high and parenthood, I abandoned the need to save things and started using them when they were necessary or helpful.

When we became parents, some things simply stopped getting used.  I don’t use the bubble bath or china or serving pieces, but it isn’t out of a desire to preserve them.  Simply, I’m in a chapter of life when I’m too lazy to hand wash the china or take a bubble bath when I have limited free time.  I’d rather spend the precious free moments doing the things that I’d rather be doing–like blogging!

So, if I wasn’t making a god out of Forever, why did that hammock story resonate with me so much?  I asked myself, “If I wouldn’t be upset with the things in my life getting destroyed, what would be the most catastrophic thing that could happen tomorrow?’

I instantly had my answer.

The most catastrophic thing would be not having Tomorrow.  I give it a capital “T” because I’ve made Tomorrow a god.

I wouldn’t say that I’m always living for Tomorrow, but I do live as though Tomorrow is owed to me.

I’ll regularly think things like:

I’m going to play with the kids more Tomorrow.

I’m going to be more affectionate toward Philip Tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I’m going to call my grandparents.

I’m going to write a letter to our pastor thanking him for his homily Tomorrow.

Tomorrow would be a great day to start running.

What are we going to do Tomorrow?

I’m going to say “I’m sorry” to my friend Tomorrow.

What’s on my to-do list for Tomorrow?

I’m going to pray the Rosary Tomorrow.

I lean so far forward onto Tomorrow that I’m realizing I’m building my life on sand.  Tomorrow is not owed to me.  This isn’t supposed to be yet another one of those carpé diem cliché posts.  It’s great to plan ahead, prioritize, blah blah blah.  But I’m realizing that I am so dependent on Tomorrow happening that I would be devastated if it didn’t come.  Every single day (hour, minute, moment) is chock full of opportunities to play with the kids more, be more affectionate, call my grandparents, write our pastor, start running, say “I’m sorry,” pray the Rosary, etc.

“Don’t put off until tomorrow what you can do today.” – Benjamin Franklin

I don’t know if Benjamin Franklin actually said that, but it’s my reminder to stop making Tomorrow my god for today.  Instead of allowing Tomorrow to be the focus of today, today needs to be my focus of today.  (I know.  Duh.  But it was a lightbulb revelation for me.)

So, this is part of my morning prayer these days:

God, what are You asking me to do with the gift of today?  What are the doors You are opening for me to go through?  How are You asking me to be Christ’s Hands, Ears, Feet, Mouth to the people in my life?  What needs to get done today that cannot wait until tomorrow?  Please give me the wisdom to know what You want me to do and the ability to make Your Will be done.  Please give me peace and wisdom when facing the things that can either wait until tomorrow or don’t need to be done at all.  Make me Your good and faithful servant.  Amen.  

Have you made a god out of Forever?  Tomorrow?  How is your relationship with time looking lately?

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